A New start; Doing things differently

It is still a struggle. Now that I have gained a new insight, it is a constant struggle to make sure I align myself with this mindstyle and lifestyle thinking that takes me in the direction of freedom and possibility.
 this may sound like flowery words, but they are not. Why? simple.  All my life, I have thought in a way that just hindered me, and kept me stuck in a rut of same thinking.
I am endeavouring to change the thoughts that live in my mind. If I can get the constructive thoughts that build results to dominate my thinking- instead of destructive thoughts that distract and hurt me- then I will be in control of what my life looks like, and how it turns out.
It is about being in control of the thoughts instead of my thoughts controlling me.

It has been a week since I did the 3 day intensive course, and events in my life continue to show changes and amazing transformations.
The first think I am grateful for is the clarity of mind. The peace in my mind is amazingly tranquil. There are no thoughts to clutter my mind, so now I am aware of the beauty and situations around me. I see less judgements- and soon hope to completely eliminate judgements all together.
There is an energy that I now possess that keeps me going. I surprise myself at times

The mind chatter is of a positive nature- looking for solutions instead of the usual negative self doubt and criticism talk. It is a different feeling to not continuously defeat myself in my own mind.

I find that other peoples issues and dramas do not affect me. I choose not to be drawn into the drama- especially when they try to draw me in.  I find I am observing from a point outside of the drama, and am unaffected by their accusations, manipulation; blame; lies and viciousness.
 This is actually something that happened to me this past week.  Someone created an imagined drama over small insignificant details, took and interpreted a situation in a biased way.
 As this person began their tirade against me,  I could feel my ego want to rise up, but I let it go and just stepped back.  Almost like watching a movie.  the words did not affect me, I kept a clear mind and advised the person to stop and consider their choice of perception. My calmness and lack of reaction only made them angrier.  I choose not to be part of their drama, and the calmness and clarity made it that simple.
 Normally someone would get on the defensive in the face of an attack. Instead I asked her what was going on in their life to have them get that angry over nothing . It took the person aback- because I was not playing their game like they thought I would.
 I went after this person to ask what the real reason was for their anger, because their anger was obviously misplaced over something so insignificant. They avoided the question and continued to place blame on me.
I continued to be unaffected by their attack.
 Amazingly, the manager ( this person's friend) spoke to them about the misplaced anger.  The offender later apologized to me.

In any case, the people that in the past have been difficult to communicate with, I am no longer having trouble with, or i can separate myself from their crap.

Everyday is a new adventure to see how things are changing , and how I react differently to the events and situations that no longer have a hold on me.

I will continue to share the discoveries I make, about what has changed.
I wish all of you positive and constructive growth and change to become the best of your potential!

With all my heart

Questa