Poem: Lie-Ability Lost

Lie-Ability Lost
By Ilona Toth


Early this Morning as the dawn broke,
With new realization I awoke,
Last night's decision has effectively broke,
The Cycle of lies- and brought some hope.

I made an effort to open  my eyes,
and clearly see that blanket of lies
was holding me back and keeping me tied,
to a destructive path in which I could Die.

My Spirit had suffered and shed many tears,
That false sense of security over so many years,
my mind would not accept truth by mirror,
Until last night did it all become clear.

Old pattern thoughts dissolve and cease to be,
Last Night's decision has helped me see,
I must give myself permission, and then set me free,
for ALL that I AM and NEED is inside of me,

I would blame myself with each failed try,
and run back to you with tear in my eyes,
Your comforting silence, I NOW realize,
 nothing more than companionship built on lies.

With each unsure step I move forward,
Each courageous step, defies the inner coward,
This fearful side of me will no longer hold power,
I must weed my heart's Garden, so my SOUL will flower;

I own my past, and then let it go,
Understand and release, these thoughts of old,
Let the truth sink in and then take hold
Face all the demons, while I stand Bold.

As I veer away from this self made Wrath,
I make the conscious choice to change my path.
I don't want to be angry, so I choose to laugh
And experience Love's overflow in Life's carafe.

I CHOOSE to Grow, become aware of my worth,
I don't want anger, rather choose  Peace and Mirth,
Been lost so long, reconnecting to mother earth
I make these changes, for I choose Rebirth.



By Ilona Toth                 |November 2009|