The Lessons are everywhere.
I am taking part in a series of courses to change and transform my life. True to my nature, I have been slow to learn and adopt the insights and incredible realizations.
One of the requirements of the course is to interview people in your life and get honest and straight forward answers and insights about how your are viewed and perceived. Not an easy thing to do or listen to sometimes, but if you are open to listening, you are rewarded with insights and seeing yourself in a way that had never occurred to you, and realizing that what you thought people were thinking about you - was actually wrong. You also open up a new direct dialogue with this person, and the relationship grows on a whole new level.
I have done the Interview with a few different people now, and the insights I have gained after pondering some of the answers- has opened my eyes to amazing strengths, tenacity, and purpose I had not seen before in myself. EVEN in the mistakes and failures, there were details and benefits and lessons I had not previously been aware of.
For example;
My family has never been very fond of my 'boyfriends'. The fact is, they were all just lovers, and could never become anything more than that. None of them just were worthy enough to meet my family. I was the one who initiated and ended the relationships; stating from the beginning - without any false pretences- that the relationship was not going to go anywhere serious. What I looked for in a man was not available.
One family member, brought up the issue of my unworthy boyfriends, and I was asked if I had ever got a benefit from being with them.
I realized in that moment, that I had. What most people would learn or experience under ideal conditions,.. I learned through the 'photo negative' experience. I became aware of my own strength, courage, determination, and self fulfilling force within that was going to learn the lesson and get the blessing in whatever situation I found myself in.
What others would learn through the positive loving and nurturing environment, I found ways to learn it in the environment devoid of love, appreciation, giving, understanding and connection.
I am that little plant that finds a way to fight its way up from under concrete, to break though to the surface and get the light.
I have currently gained a whole new level of love, respect and admiration for myself, and the perseverance that is within me- to make the most of any situation.
I acknowledge that I have wasted many years pitying myself for lack of the relationship I wanted, yet the whole time I was building the foundation to build the person I wanted to become in the lessons I didn't know I was learning.
So many times I have told people to look for the blessings in all the situations they find themselves in- thinking I was weak in walking my talk,.. I DID walk my Talk!!
There was another interview I did, in which it was pointed out to me that I had lost the "Drive" I once had to do what I needed to do to help people. This, I knew was true, and so began to consider the possible reasons for why I no longer had the drive within me.
I began to realize that there was a fear in me to invest time and energy in people. Every time I got invested in someone; there would be a judgement, a betrayal; delusion; pain; loss of trust that would end up negating and devaluing all the CARE, energy, trust, Intention and valuable time I invested in a person.
The reason I lost the drive, or shelved it, was a way of keeping control of my time and emotion, and avoiding the pain and disappointment at the hands of others.
Unfortunately, it is stalling my growth and keeping me from being my true self. This is something I must be constantly aware of and work to move past it.
I am Glad I am doing the interviews,.. although sometimes the truth or perspectives of another can be hard to hear- it is important to be open to hearing what needs to be heard, so that you can move past what ever is blocking you.
There is Huge potential to learn so much about yourself and the strengths, insights and lessons that we gain with each experience. Look for the blessing. ALWAYS.
I am grateful for the opportunity to be taking this course, and am forever Grateful to Ian and Hope for making this a possibility for me.
SO what ever situation YOU are in, Look for the lesson and learn from it, and you will never have failed. each situation brings a treasure in the form of a lesson. Take IT! The more you see them, the faster you will get ahead. Nothing will be able to stop you.
Also, criticism is not always pleasant to hear- but it IS crucial to find out what is wrong or where you are stuck so that you can get past it to where you want to be. Seeing ourselves from a different perspective will open up a whole new way to understand yourself.
Here is to your growth!
I have a new mantra for my life;
I KNOW I have what it takes to be able to create the life I want, and Show others how to get there by leading them Through My example and effectively changing the world!!
blessings to all
~Questamaya
Note: The Course I am currently taking deals with taking the transforming way of thinking and learning how to implement the new possibilities of who you can create yourself to become or transform into. Also, while in the process of implementing i,t your actions inspire and show those closest to you and demonstrate the changes in you through your actions- that you are indeed transforming yourself.
